i just watched Definitely, Maybe. and i actuali like it! i feel so warm and fuzzy right now. HAHA. i should've known that April was the one. at one point she said the movie's title. so of course it's her! heh... i think it's quite cool. like i actuali felt for them. ISLA FISHER IS HOTT!! ok ok hormones aside, the 2 leads had good chemistry.

aaaaanyways i'm having a problem with one of my songs. so what's a better way to wind down than to watch a commercial hollywood romantic comedy... which didn't end up all that bad. heh...

OH! now i feel lonely. maybe one day my daughter will encourage me to confess to my true love... who is not her mom... that's kinda screwed up if u think about it. BUT HEY, it' hollywoood. heh...

gimme gimme back my drum sound

i think God speaks to you in many ways

sometimes and oftentimes mysteriously and subtly

sometimes quite clearly

and sometimes when you think your talent is shit, the next day a whole bunch of people on the internet come up to you to tell you that they like your song.

thank You

your manager says you need better songs....

your good friend says your sound is raw and that your song is just a "passing song" on the radio and nothing special...

as much as i try not to be affected, i am.

so am i supposed to succumb to commercial pressures or believe in my music and just do my thing?

i just feel so torn and depressed. i was thinking maybe i could make a difference in the local music scene. but now i think maybe i'll just be another guy who wanted to be something but never quite got there.

the opinions of these people matter greatly to me. if they already feel this way about my songs, then i seriously don't know why i'm even trying. why i'm even trying not to be a product or why i'm even trying to give listeners something different. the album might just end up being a vanity project.

i am doing everything on my own and sometimes i just feel like giving up.

maybe you're not such a great songwriter after all...

some people handle fame with grace. others, not so much...

sometimes you need to take a step back and see what you are. see what you've become.

never forget who you are. sure you can have fun and 'enjoy life' but there are lines that shouldn't be crossed.

always be humble. you are a person before you're a celebrity. for me, i am also a son, a brother and a friend before that.

i am sad and disappointed

why is that on the day i decide to wanna post a big fat entry on my music blog, multiply has to do friggin' maintenance??!!!! MEKH to multiply. i am effectively malas-ed.

but it's ok mr blogspot here hasn't let me down yet. always available for me to complain about other blog sites. heh...

so i've been really busy the past 2 weeks. mostly with Sonofa and gigs. what is that? what the heck is Sonofa u ask? WELL I'M GLAD YOU ASKED.

Sonofa is a live band that plays dance music. like how a DJ normally spins at clubs from his console or laptop. but see here. now it's a band playing techno, house and drum&bass. it's the first of its kind in sunny singapore and i'm so excited to be part of it. there's 9 of us in Sonofa. 8 musicians and 1 video deejay. so we'll have visuals accompanying the music we play. relli cool stuff. i'm playing synths from my laptop.

we'll be performing at the esplanade as part of the Flip Side festival on 20th June. keep a lookout!!!

on another note, i've played for 2 gigs the past 2 weeks for my own songs. i'm relli glad bcos i've been getting gd response. very thankful. airplay will start in june!!! WOOOOHOOOOO!!! and i was recently back in the studio to record a new song. i'm excited about the new song!! MUAHAHAHAHA. i'm such an easily excited person.

but yea... after taking a breather after exams and stuff, i'm ready to take over the world now. i'm in cahoots with pinky and the brain. NORF!!

watch out world