falling slowly

your manager says you need better songs....

your good friend says your sound is raw and that your song is just a "passing song" on the radio and nothing special...

as much as i try not to be affected, i am.

so am i supposed to succumb to commercial pressures or believe in my music and just do my thing?

i just feel so torn and depressed. i was thinking maybe i could make a difference in the local music scene. but now i think maybe i'll just be another guy who wanted to be something but never quite got there.

the opinions of these people matter greatly to me. if they already feel this way about my songs, then i seriously don't know why i'm even trying. why i'm even trying not to be a product or why i'm even trying to give listeners something different. the album might just end up being a vanity project.

i am doing everything on my own and sometimes i just feel like giving up.

maybe you're not such a great songwriter after all...